CRUSH PART 1

              Crush....

Abeg, am i the only one that just crushes on guys crazily???!like i crush on guys anyhow.

One thing is that, for me to crush on a person, the person must usually be in a position of authority, must be someone i can look up to in one way or the other.

Either the person is older than me, smarter than me, more accomplished(like well in charge of his life) than me. He should sha be someone worth looking up to as a role model. kinda like a big bro figure.

Probably because i don't have a brother and my dad is dead and the vacuum his absence created in my heart is craving to be filled .

Over the years, right from when i was a kid, i always had bad cases of hero worship. I really don't see it as any thing bad, as far as i don't act on those feelings

The first time i actually acted on one of those my infatuations was after my secondary school education. I went to work in a cyber cafe for a little time while i was waiting to be admitted into the higher institution. The manager at the place was this cute, tall , well spoken guy.I tripped immediately. Did i mention that he was also a fitness freak. He was kinda obsessed with his body and keeping in shape. well, to cut the story short i liked the guy   ( Or should i say man since he was thirty years of age!) and i tried to make it known to him. i was tired of suffering in silence. After a while he became aware of the fact that i wanted him and he started showing interest in me but was always teasing me about the age gap between us. Kept saying stuff like "is it even legal to touch you", "you this small gal " . I didn't like.

Finally, a day came that we were alone in the office, the sexual tension was too much to ignore,he came up to me and it was like all these Harlequin novels (looked into my eyes and all those other romantic stuff), but innocent little Tiffany ran off at the last moment. We didn't even kiss!

 

 

To be continued............